So yesterday went very well. Yay for water-fast Wednesdays! And I did go to the track, but I only ended up biking for 40 minutes, and walking for 40 minutes. Which is still good, considering the no-calories. Then when I got home I baked vegan cookies, but didn't eat them, because I'm saving them for later today. I cleaned out my mom's car, and then I did a whole hour of crunches, lunges, squats, pushups, and lifting weights. That should have put me at a hefty deficit for later today. -1712 calories, to be exact. Which is good, but not enough, because I drank some soymilk this morning to keep me from falling over because I was reeeeeally dizzy. I think I'm going to go do at least half of what I did last night, and ride the stationary bike for as long as I can stand it. I have to burn more calories before later today.
What exactly is later today? Well, today is my three months with my boyfriend, and I think in an earlier blog I mentioned that I have this elaborate plan to surprise him with a picnic tonight at the lake :) However, only until yesterday did I even realize how many calories I would be consuming... The meal ticket includes salad for starts, steamed veggies, garlic bread, spaghetti, and vegan cookies. And this really yummy strawberry diaquiri flavored SoBe drink. I totaled this up last night, and if I ate on serving of everything, that would be like 1000 calories or more. Totally UNacceptable. That's crazy. I cannot do that to myself, because I know it would lead to a binge. So, I'm thinking that if I only make a little bit of the pasta, and give him most of it, it should save me. And I was thinking, he doesn't even eat salad, or the veggies I was planning on making, so why bother with those?? But if I do make them, then I'll eat those first and be too full to eat a lot of pasta/bread/cookies. And maybe I'll just take water, because he actually does drink a lot of water, so that could work maybe. I really am not looking forward to the eating part of my plan. However, if mother nature decides to leave me the fuck alone, I will be able to burn off some of those calories :))) And then I'll do the other half of my exercises that I did last night tonight to burn off some more calories, and hopefully I will be able to keep myself sane. It crossed my mind, why not just take like 4 laxatives when I get home? I might do that too... depending on how much I eat tonight. I was going to try to not eat anything until tonight, but if I eat a little today I may not be as hungry tonight?
Help. What should I do?