Friday, July 23, 2010

i wanna be the carrot girl


btw, im 150 today :]
and happy. happier, at least.
how is everyone?

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

quick update

been super busy, but happier i think? i havent binged in 13 days. mostly because i got a tongue ring and it makes it difficult to eat sometimes. but still :] victory!
ive been eating alot of fruit lately.
and smoking alot of weed lately.
i never get the munchies really until the day after.
which is why today i am destracting myself with ddr and exercise. hopefully.
last night was amazing. my best friend and i drove into the abyss for three hours. with no shirts on :D

update on boy from previous posts: he is amazing :] but neither of us really want a relationship rigt now, so we are just really, really close friends.

i love it when things seem perfect for a change.
but it is ruined as soon as i look in a mirror

Friday, July 9, 2010

be back monday :D

going camping at the beach :D

today: 2 starbursts- 40
15 almonds- about 100

plan: eat as little as possible, and only fruits/veggies/nuts when forced
go running on the beach every morning before sunrise

sooooooooo excited :DD

love you guys!!

oh! ps- i am totally crushing on the one guy xD

Thursday, July 8, 2010

back on track

sadhana: i will never stop posting!!! i love yousguys way too much :]

i fell into a pothole in the road, but i climbed out and i am back down to 155,, and the next 5 days im going camping so it will be easy to get away with not eating much because all im taking for food is fruit and almonds :]

yesterday was a good day :] i had 130 cals of almonds, and a low-carb monster energy drink, so i had 150 cals :D and i did DDR and burned 500 calories, AND, i went to a show with some friends last night, and got up close and personal with this amazingly sexy guy :D

i feel very awesome today. how is everyone else?

Saturday, July 3, 2010

abc day 14? ha...

you guys are so awesome!!! thanks so much for your kind words and support it really does help. this whole week has been crazy i have been way too busy with school stuff to even think about food or my ex bf and i havent lost any weight at all because ive been eating shit food but luckily i have been walking non stop all day the past two days for orientation so i havent gained any weight at all either. im 156, which isnt horrible but isnt pretty either :/
today would be day 14 of abc, but i already screwed that up, but i dont feel bad today so i am going to fast the rest of the day and exercise to make up for it, and then move on tomorrow to day 15. am going to redo all the days i messed up after i get to day 50. i WILL be skinny for college.

speaking of college, i have amazing news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM GETTING A FULL SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HIHGAEGBVOHBHUGBSVQEVGBUOANKHZJBFDB YAY
it will cover housing fees, tuition, lab fees, books, and even a meal plan! so of course i am getting the smallest meal plan... but the campus has a coffee shop so i will just use all my meal credits to buy coffee :] i am so excited! i find out who my roommate is the middle of this month, i hope i know who she is and isnt a complete stranger :/ but it would almost be better to have a roommate who is a complete stranger that way i dont have to worry about if she finds out about my ed...
my mom is like trying to force me to get a mini fridge for my dorm and to fill it with food im like uh no ill fill it with low carb monster energy drink, tea, coffee, and apples and that is it. i dont want to eat like ever at college. i probably wont because i dont like eating in front of people and there are people everywhere...
im also scared that like what happens if i binge and have to purge cuz i am definitely taking my bucket with me but i wont be able to use it like any time i want :/ idk.

but yeah mostly im really really excited :D and my bf and i decided that even though he is an asshole i will still be friends with him because i do really care for him and we are very close and we dont really know alot about each other still so were just going to be friends.
that way im not obligated to turn down all the hot college guys :D hehehehehe
i havent heard from my guy friend in a while because he is grounded :/ i really miss him.

my bestie is coming back on monday!!!!!!!! she is going to continue abc with me and we are going to kill ourselves with exercise :D
oh oh oh and i start a babysitting job on monday so i will be too busy to eat much this week :DDD yay!!!!!!

i hope all of you are doing fantastic! i have missed you all this week and i will try my best to update more often than last week. i forgot how inspiring using blogger everyday was :]

stay strong <333