Wednesday, February 15, 2012
cue the cycle:
gain weight>>freak out>> starve>> lose weight>>binge...
i was going to try to restrict and then i realized i have no fucking idea how to do that anymore :'(
i'm in recovery goddammit.
Monday, February 6, 2012
i take depo and every single time the first month after the shot i go completely insane and when it starts to wear off after the three months i feel high as a kite and on top of the world. these extremes are driving me crazy and i refuse to put my mind through this again. i really need to know what other people have tried. i definitely need to switch birth controls but i refuse to let the shot wear off and then switch to something else and then that one make me depressed also. also, if it causes weight gain, it’s automatically out of the question.
wtf is going on with me right now? everything is the end of the world and i can't fucking take it.
my life is perfect why the fuck am i so sad and angry all of a sudden?