Sunday, September 4, 2011

i seriously need to stop all this eating thing. i've been compulsively eating all day, it's 1:30 in the afternoon and i have had 900 calories. a good bit of it was protein though, so it's not all bad, but i have the whole day ahead of me and i'm already over my safe limits :( i'm really close to going over into the freak-out zone, like if i go over 1000 it almost always triggers a binge/purge and then well everyone knows what happens from there. my teeth hurt from purging so much yesterday so i didn't want to purge today but.......
ugh and i was supposed to fast today because i have to go to a baseball game tonight and i wanted to wear cute clothes but nothing fits me anyway except metal band shirts and loose jeans bleh
meh. i feel so like apathetic. i need a cigarette <3

6 comments:

  1. Don't worry yourself too much! Have a good time tonight.

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  2. follow me and watch my posts. I might be of some inspiration?

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  3. Just enjoy yourself, sweetie. We all have those days. <3

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  4. Everyone has bad days. Just try to keep moving forward and just try to think about what you can do to make tomorrow different. Make tomorrow better.

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  5. I'm sorry. I hope you can make it through the rest of the day and still feel safe... maybe go for a walk and flush your system out with water? And cigarettes. I very much love cigarettes.

    I hope you feel better soon :)

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