happy fucking birthday :(
i never ever thought i would live this long, nor did i ever want to, tbh.

i'm fasting today. coffee, water, tea, and then tonight if i can find someone old enough to buy vodka then i will celebrate my birthday.

i drank like 4 bottles of gatorade last night because i panicked from my heart feeling so weird after i purged. so i feel better ish now, i guess. except i also ate more food, so blehhh