Yeah... it's Sunday... I'm supposed to fast today.. which means I'm not supposed to eat a huge fucking bowl of oatmeal with peanut butter and soymilk and fucking candy sprinkles on top wtf what kind of fucking fat kid puts rainbow candy sprinkles on oatmeal?????????
Idk even know how it happened, but I'm sure I stayed under or right around 500 so I'm still good for my limit now I just gotta watch my back (and my mouth) for the rest of today.
But yesterday was sooooo good and my friend and I spent like 3 hours looking at my collection of thinspo because we both wanted to binge so badly and I was like no, I'm not going to let you binge, because we don't deserve that yet and we didn't eat anything at all and when I woke up I was still 156 even though I ate so much yesterday and we didn't binge and it was so great and we were both so freaking happy and now I totally blew my fast today but that is ok because I haven't eaten since around 10 so I'll just fast for 30 hours like I was going to do for today...
Except I'm going to the doctor tomorrow for a check-up and my mom always goes into the room with me for some reason so she always sees when they weigh me and I really don't want her to know that I weigh 156 I want her to keep thinking it's more like 166 that way she doesn't get suspicious so I think I'm going to drink like a gallon of water before I go... and wear lots of layers.
Ok, it's going to be ok, I'm going to the track today, hopefully all day, and it will be fine, like the oatmeal never happened...
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