ok, so... i figured.. if i drink like 137897934758 gallons of water today, and like 3 pots of coffee, maybe ill lose the water weight part quicker...
so yeah i fasted today pretty much it went well so far and i got my project done finally i feel a little better but im so fucking scared about tomorrow i dont want to go to school i dont want to be a senior i dont want to grow up this is freaking me out idk why this is such a big deal everyone grows up sometime why is this so hard for me i cant do it i cant grow up its like.. idk i never really got to be a child .. this sucks so fucking much omg
and im gonna look so horrible tomorrow :/
all my friends are gonna be like omg youve lost weight!
but thats cuz they didnt see me on thursday, so thy wont know that ive actually gained weight :/
im the same weight now that i was 2 months ago :/
and that sucks.
but oh well. pick myself up and deal with it i guess.
go with the flow, and take whatever life decides to throw at me, even if that means becomming a senior :(
you guys are so nice and encouraging. thats what i really need right now, a positive approach to things i guess. thank you <3
im not ready for the life thats being thrown at me right now.
i dont know how to handle it.