so despite bingeing (ugh) i did burn 800 calories yesterday.
today i weighed 151, so i'm hoping most of the 17 pounds i had gained is just water/food weight, and i'll be smaller tomorrow?
i don't feel like bingeing today... FINALLY!!!!!!!
i had 600 calories from breakfast and lunch, i'm going to play some DDR today and burn 1000 calories, and do some crunches and pushups and stuff, cuz i actually feel like it :)
hopefully i'll lose more water weight and be like 149 tomorrow i will be soooooooooo happy
i don't think i'll eat over 1000 calories for today. that is my plan. i'll have like a salad or something for dinner, some kind of veggies and a protein shake after i workout, and if i have extra calories left over, i'll have another protein shake before bed. gotta build me some muscles.
i cried with my mom a lot last night, we talked for hours. i love my mom, i really do. she is the best, despite everything we've both been through. we're a lot alike.
i cried out of nowhere this morning, just listening to music and playing spider solitaire... totally random :/
blehhh
im so fat :(
ugh.

i hope everyone is doing ok, im sorry i haven't been here for you guys really.