im fucking starving. i'm going home for the weekend, and i am going to binge my life away, and i don't give a fuck. i haven't had any food in like 2 days because i have no money.
i fail at life, and apparently i fail at death too :(
i appreciate the support from you guys, but most of your comments just piss me off. god cant help me, if he exists, he put me in this shit so stfu and keep jesus out of my blog.
if you dont like what i say, then dont read it
this blog is for ME to vent and get things out because it is all i have left to work with so i dont care what you people think of me anymore.

(sidenote: zoloft didnt work for me at all, it made things worse. i like prozac better so far but i havent been able to have a followup appointment to raise the dose so its not really working per say but it could potentially help.)

and yes, in case anyone is wondering, i do want to give up. im so emotionally stressed and drained and i have no strength at all and you know what i dont care because i have been dealt the worst fucking hand of life cards that could possibly have been dealt to me and ive been through so many things and gotten through so many hard times that im just done so yes i give up i cant take this shit anymore.
i just have to find a better way out because taking 60 ibuprofen just made me really sick the ext day and im perfectly fine 3 days later :| and i do not understand why it didnt work but oh well ill just try something different next time.

having no fucking money for food doesnt help! aaaaaaa brain crazy from starving :(
FUCK EVERYTHING