Thursday, November 19, 2009

d'aaawwwww :D (plus survey)

you guysssss!!!!!
i love getting you guyses comments :DDDD
they made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside :]]]

funny story:
last night my best freind and i binged like mad, and she threw up in my sink, and it got clogged.
we tried digging the vomit out with spoons, and poking it through with a skewer, but nothing worked.
it was so disgusting omg
and it took us three hours to realize, oh hey maybe we should try the plunger...
and it worked like magic.
best invention ever :]

another story:
tonight was the last slow pitch softball game i will ever play in high school.
i do not want to graduate.
but at least we won :D 12 to 8 oh yeahhh
and i got 4 hits :]
and the pictures my mom took turned out really great
i actually looked almost normal sized instead of the fat tub of lardy fatness :]

will update more later, busy with homework and stuff.. yah.

oh, my friend and i are gonna renew our eating contract :]
hopefully it will begin again on december 1st, and then maybe we will fine-tune it for the new year :]

and even though i did eat today, at least it was veggies, and 4 bites of an apple, and i feel pretty ok :]

omg and also walmart sells akavar for $10 now yaaaaaayyyyyyyyy
****************************surveyyy :D************************************
Size: 9 (US)
Age: 18
Highest Weight: 215lbs
Lowest Weight: 149lbs
Goal Weight: 111lbs
Favorite Diet Food?Diet coke, soup, popcorn, tea, steamed veggies like broccoli
Favorite Binge Food?everything. peanut butter, ramen, burritos, cereal, hummus
Favorite Exercise?anything with weights, yoga, dancing
Thinspo?Before and after shots, real girl, vlada <3
What Makes You Slip Up?being alone, being in social settings, feeling sad, feeling really happy
What Makes You Strong?Seeing the scale go down, exercise
When Did It Start?psh. 9/21/91 (i wouldnt let my mom beast feed me... clue?)
Does Anyone Know?People who read this, my best friend, my ex bf
Do You Want Help?No. I don't think I need it.
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? never more than 600 on a good day, preferably less than 500
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? flabby loose skin on my stomach and chest from letting it get that bad, thunder thighs, stretch marks, flabby arms, no definition, blobs of cottage cheese :P
Are You In A Relationship? yes.
Is It For Attention? no, i love him with every ounce of the pretty girl inside of me who is trying to get out.
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?the fat one. i always have been, and even when i reach 111, i will still be the fat one. its in my personality now.
Are You Depressed?not really, i just dont care about anything.
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? no. i dont want to die, i just dont want to be alive sometimes.
Ever Been To A Psychologist?duh.
Are You On Any Medication? no because i disagree with meds for problems this small. i can deal with it.
[xnotquitex] anorexic
[x] ednos
[x] bulimic
[x] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[x] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[x] vegan
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[ ] have tried to stop me
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[x] I could disappear
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[x] shaking
[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[ ] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[ ] fat people
[ ] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[ ] more friends
[ ] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[x] a gym membership
[ ] to lose 50 lbs
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[ ] to lose 10 lbs


  1. yay for winning softballe sad to graduate but it would have sucked even more to loose your last game now you can always remeber as "tha last game that you also won"

    and just to ask does not letting your mother breast feed you maybe have something to do with food issues later? on because snap i refused to breastfeed to


  2. congrats on your softball game. Hmm that part about breastfeeding made me think... When inwas a baby inwas a pig but when I was about two I straight out stopped eating (then started again) and now don't. The survey is good. :) good luck