...because that's rational.
I say: FORCE yourself. You'll thank yourself later :)
You just hang in there. I know things are gonna get better for you, you just need to belive that. I went through a similar thing some years ago so I know what I`m talking about. Don`t forsake yourself or your health because you deserve better. Fight your way through this because it will be worth it:) Warm thoughts fom DandelionGirl