i had like 4 cups of mashed potatoes and 2 snickers minis :/ and i was gonna play ddr for the rest of the night to worl it off but I FORGOT TO BRING THE DAMN GAME BACK WITH ME i brought the mat, just not the fucking game................................
fuckfuckfuck and im running out of laxatives and i have no money to buy them waaaaaa
i had a fortune cookie that told me that being loyal and friendly would make me popular...................
ive always been loyal, and i have never ever been popular wtffff
im gonna force myself to drink 18 cups of coffee tonight. i took some lexies. im prolly gonna take some more in a few hours.
i fucking hate everything :/ today started out so amazing :///
i hate being home. if it's ever anything over two nights i binge.
i cannot keep doing this :(
realization: i ate more calories today than i did yesterday, on fucking THANKSGIVING
i really wanna just take a bunch of sleeping pills, more laxatives, and just sleep all this shit off
after i drink some more coffee
i had too much coffee.
no sleep, must exercise all night long.
i found my moms free weights.
she was hiding them from me
i'll show her.
i'll fucking show everybody.