on christmas eve... my whole family is gathered at my great aunts house to eat and open presents.. and my mom left me at home. she knew i wanted to go. she saw me getting dressed. i asked her when they were planning on leaving.
she didnt tell me she was leaving, just got in the truck and left, and didnt say goodbye...
she doesnt care about me at all.. this documents proof of that fact. i dont exist to her.
just wait, cuz one day shell wish she had paid attention. one day i'll be something amazing. something worthy of attention and love. one day shell be like damn i wonder what has happened to my daughter... but by then, ill be in california, far away from her, and after i leave, im not coming back, or writing, or calling, for at least a very very very long time.
i wish someone cared. i wish brandon would come back. i wish i was good enough for somebody, anybody, to just care about me. i don't want to be alone.
i don't want to be alone :(