i just cut myself for the first time in 5 years. one slit for every day since jake died. im pathetic. i just want out. i need to be with him,i cant fucking do this shit anymore, just poretend to be ok while im drunk all the time because if im sober then im hiding in my room, starving and gulping fucking offee, idk what to do
but it looks sp retty, my oldest friend before ana
nd he is back now
with his blade and his dick and his fucking vodka
im never eating again
i found the right way
all i need is a razor and some vodka and ill be good to go
go forever
to go until im completely gone
gone from this whole fucking world
oi fucking hate it here