everything goes from good to bad to better to worse and back again in minutes.
wake up, feel ok, eat a little, no problem.
start to go to class, pass by too many people, turn around, back to dorm, catch breath.
get bored, watch tv show reruns, eat too much, feel like shit.
get high, feel better, eat more, feel not high anymore, and feel like shit.
throw up, drink water, throw up again, feel better.
look in the mirror, notice nothing has changed since this morning, feel worse.
and now, i am here.
feel the melancholy emptiness and emotionless numb self of me.