Thursday, September 9, 2010

good day

gym -400
monster +20
gym -620
soup- +30
total: -970

i need to make an appointment with my therapist. its been almost a month :/
except i have no ride.

my best friend is leaving ed. and she is losing weight. i fucking love her, but i really hate her right now. i am almost too jealous to look at her. fucking 128, bitch.
but whatever ill catch up one day.
i will.
starting now.


  1. i've been through what you have, but i decided to stop being so harsh on myself. i realised that even after all my hard work starving myself i wound up fatter than before. unfortunately, this has happened to you too.
    today i am eating 800-1200 calories a day and i'm working off a moderate 300-600 calories through working out 5x a week. i'm losing weight and keeping it off- hell yeah! something i could never achieve when i was starving. i still can't understand it, but all i know is that i've lost 17 pounds in 3-4 months. i'm 125 atm and still steadily losing a pound per week.
    just take a step back and think about what you're doing. there's an easier, healthier way that works much better :)

  2. I dunno who this person who commented before me is.

    But it's not like she doesn't know what she's doing here... If you looked at her stats (which are graciously and selflessly listed on the right-side bar), you'd know that she's been worse, and she doesn't want your "healthier way".
    I realize I don't know your history, but it's easy for people on the outside to say "Oh, just step back and think about it."
    Irrational nearly always rules out over rational.

    Anyway, I think you're awesome honey, and an inspiration to me, anyway. <3
    Love you.

  3. i know she's way better than before and it's due to her hard work, but i remember when she got down to about my weight and now suddenly she's way up there again. the only reason that happens is because of the starving, fasting, binging cycle.
    believe me, i have been in the full swing of it. i am NOT an outsider.