so i went to a club with this guy and we made out a lot and danced and got drunk and had sex
and now cody is upset
i mean, i feel horrible about it because i love cody
but were not in a relationship, and he told me he wouldn't care if i had sex with other people
but then he said "well if i was drunk with a girl i couldn't sleep with her because she's not you"
and im just like
well fuck everything then, you should have told me that before i slept with another guy
:(
like, as if i didnt feel bad enough already...
and cody has been really depressed lately so like he stopped being all cute and sweet with me and stuff so i was just like wtf like i felt like he was ignoring me
and i tried to give him space, and i tried to smother him with love, and neither of those worked

so now i dont know what to do
except cry, and be sad

except big girls dont cry
so i binge and purge instead
why is that the fucking answer to fucking everything?!