Sunday, February 27, 2011

failness :(

i consumed 36,543 calories this month so far. that's 1353 calories a day.
i burned off 8850 calories this month. that's 1025 net calories a day.
if 1000 calories a day is acceptable, then i only went over my calorie limit by 693 calories.
if 700 calories a day is acceptable (which is goal for right now), then i went over by 8793 calories.
i also gained ten pounds this month :(
i plan on burning at least 1000 calories by playing ddr today, and im fasting until march.
i need to exercise more. i need to fast more. i need control again.
fuck nutrition, fuck health, and fuck therapy.
i made a promise to my fellow bloggers and to myself, and to my best friend that i dont talk to anymore, and i plan on keeping my promise.
i will do whatever it takes to become sick again.


  1. Good luck! I know You can loose the weight <33

  2. Sometimes "healthy" is a fairy tale to Ana, but no one *wants* you to be sick. <3 I understand if you don't want to be healthy yet, but don't say it's us...

  3. You will get to where you want to be. You don't need to be sick to do it. Sick will only make you think you're never there. And that would suck. I don't want you to be sick. I want you to be happy.

  4. I want you to be happy.

    I just typed that before I realized xthinforever said the exact thing. I don't want you to be miserable, because you're such an amazing person.