procrastabingeing

d. when one partakes in binge eating for any of the following reasons:
1) to put off doing something important
2) to have something to do other than something important
3) to make time go by until right before you absolutely must do something important

ok, so... i have 3 essays to write and submit via internet... by midnight... it's 11:20...

whatever you do, no matter what eating disorder you choose, NEVER procrastinate important things (like writing essays for scholarships for college) by bingeing. It is the worst kind of binge ever, and it did the opposite of helping me write these freakin essays :/

wish me luck, and thank god i can type fast!

i will return to emptiness, i have to. liquids only during spring break!
stay strong <333

ohmygosh

yeah we didnt go to oa... we sat in the fucking parking lot for like 20 minutes debating on if we were gonna get out and walk in, or be little bitchy wimps and go home

and of course, food is so much more comforting than new situations :/
fml

oa meeting

my best friend and i, who also struggles with b/p addiction and stuff, have decided to go to an overeaters anonymous meeting tonight at six.

one last binge before the big change.
update: i've finally gotten the hang of vomiting :/ fml

hindsight

if i lose only 3 pounds a week, i can still meet my graduation goal weight of 123.
3 pounds, seriously???? thats so easy to do, i've lost up to 10 pounds in a week before, so 3 should be easy as pie. easy as low cal, sugar free, mini pie.
i will get there. i know i will.
i have to.
i'll show those bitches.
i'll be one of those sexy bitches.
just you wait.

(if anyone wants to bet on it, i'll be collecting money starting tomorrow :] hehe)

ughhhhhhhhhhh

non-ed related post, fucking bitch i want to kill her so badly ughhh

here's why

theres a girl, who has ben in love with my bf for almost eternity, and she cant get over the fact that he LOVES me and HATES her, so she makes up all kinds of stories about how she had sex with him and he cheated on me with her and all kinds of shit

meanwhile, i, not even thinking about her at all, become a fan of "there are plenty of fish in the sea, so could you please stop flirting with my fish?"'s page.

she takes this to mean that i am attacking her, and then goes off about how she tried to warn me he was trouble blah blah blah

look bitch, i don't even know you, so stop tagging me in stupid pictures on facebook, stop being a drama queen, stop dragging me into all your fucking petty teenage drama bullshit.

Quick upd8: Havent binged since monday! finally got prom dress and its perfect and inma look amazing because im only eatin fruits/veggies til prom <3 u guys!

Tip: drink a big bottle of water right before a long shower, that way your full and you relax, so you wont want to binge when you get out of the shower.