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new plan for next 8 days

i'm giving up abc because i don't want to eat next to nothing and run everyday at the same time. so here is my new plan:

i have 8 days until i get to go home, which means 8 days until i get to weigh myself for the first time in months. starting today, i will go on my run every single day, no exceptions. it's about 5 miles and i can do it in an hour so i definitely have TIME to do it every day until i go home. also, i want to eat 500 calories a day, give or take a few, but fresh fruits and vegetables are free foods, so i can eat as much of that as possible. my 500 calories should come from proteins, because i definitely need more of that to build my muscles that i lost when i used to starve myself. so yeah.
500 calories a day until next saturday.
run everyday.
eat as many fruits and veggies as possible, because those are ok.
off to shower and tan now :]
<3

day 11

plan:
run (-796)
tan
smoothie? (125)
class
class
run (-796)
small salad (25~)

i didnt realize that today was 150 after a fasting day :/ i feel doomed today, but i know i wont binge, i just will be really hungry, and i hate that feeling, but there really is no food in my dorm (none of my food at least) that i could binge on... i have a bad habit of sneaking my roommate's food sometimes :/
wish me luck!!!
oh! and to my newest follower, ILY <3 but it won't let me get to your blog... :/

day 10 :D

fasting day :] i prolly got dis. it's 6pm, i haven't eaten anything all day, AND i went running for an hour ish this morning and so far today with walking back and forth to class and my run i burned off 1208 calories, so i'm way negative right now. all should be fine unless bf wants to get food.
i dont know what ill tell him, but i dont wanna be anywhere near food today. theres hardly anything in my dorm, so if i just stay here and dont get high then ill fall asleep eventually and it will be ok. the only problem is i cant fall asleep without smoking recently, so idk how imma fall asleep, but if i dont, then ill just pretend to be asleep lol

day 9 :]

i think i'm back on track for this week. i had 465 calories so far today from a luna bar a smoothie and some pretzels and i might let myself have a salad for dinner while i watch biggest loser, and then i'm going to bed so i don't binge.
yesterday i worked out like beast mode :D
and today i went running/walking and i can finally go 5 miles in an hour so i'm happy about that.
i love the nature trails on campus they are perfect for running.
tomorrow is a fasting day, so my plan is to either sleep in and not let myself have enough time for breakfast or to wake up 2 hours before class so i can go running before my first class, or i can sleep in, go to class, and go running after my first class before my second one because there's a 2 hour gap between them...
ok sorry i had to type all that out lol im trying to sort my thouhghts...
here's my plan:
tonight- shower, biggest loser/ salad, sleep
tomorrow- class, run, class, tanning until bf gets out of class, refuse food bf gives me, sleep
i miss you guys i need to catch up on all your blogs :/
ily <333

what day is today????

i lost count because I CAN'T FUCKING STOP BINGEING
ugh
good news is i have been working out like a boss i'm not even kidding. so i burned off all extra calories consumed. but still not good enough because i want to do abc and finish it :/
but today is already a fail because i ate a poptart before i worked out.
that makes no fucking sense at all... ugh fuck junk food!
so i'm already at 400 for today, i just burned 1000 so as long as i don't go over like 700 ish i should still be fine for the day. i'm planning on having a sald for lunch and a salad for dinner and i need to find some protein.
other than that, nothing's really new :/
i need to lose some fucking weight!!!!!!!!!

day 4 edits :/

i binged last night but i didnt go over 1000 for the day yesterday so i'm gonna stay positive and get the fuck off the internet so i can exercise.