food:
b- smoothie (125)
l- egg, egg white, black beans (156)
d- steamed veggies (40)
snack- greek yogurt (70)
total= 391
exercise:
walking (206)
sex :D (56)
net calories= 131
almost went over, but caught myself. obviously i didn't fast as planned but that is ok because i didnt go to the foam party anyways.
:/
i need friends.
nobody in my immediate circle is anything like me, and none of them like anything i like, so i never get to do things that i want to do because i don't have anybody to do those things with. all the people near me wanna do is study and go shopping and go get food and fucking why not go clubbing every now and again?
the people around me are so fucking boring. lame. i hate them almost.
but i don't have any friends, so it's not like i can really complain.
whatever goodnight
Thursday, April 7, 2011
abc day 3
i fasted all day and then drank with my bf :] alcohol doesnt count (in my opinion).
i plan on fasting today as well :]
therefore, i am switching days 3 and 4 with one of the fasting days.
idk how im so good at this right now, i guess my body just needed it's old friend back <3
i plan on fasting today as well :]
therefore, i am switching days 3 and 4 with one of the fasting days.
idk how im so good at this right now, i guess my body just needed it's old friend back <3
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
abc day 2
food:
b- egg, egg white, black beans (156)
l- strawberry smoothie- (125)
d- veggies and hummus (121)
s- 1/2 luna bar (90)
total= 492
exercise:
walking (-412)
net calories: 80
must do better today! i WILL go running tonight. 400 calories only. i can do this.
EDIT*******
tomorrow night there will be a foam party at my university. i'm seriously thinking about switching days 4-5 with two of the fast days. i need to look my best for that o.o
b- egg, egg white, black beans (156)
l- strawberry smoothie- (125)
d- veggies and hummus (121)
s- 1/2 luna bar (90)
total= 492
exercise:
walking (-412)
net calories: 80
must do better today! i WILL go running tonight. 400 calories only. i can do this.
EDIT*******
tomorrow night there will be a foam party at my university. i'm seriously thinking about switching days 4-5 with two of the fast days. i need to look my best for that o.o
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
abc day 1 and thanks :]
first off, i wanna thank all of you who commented. (Emuhlee, LakiSwirl, Kat, Peridot, ImpracticalShopper, and of course, Charlie <3) you guys are amazing!
secondly, here's how i did yesterday:
food:
b- egg, 2 egg whites, coffee (102)
l- strawberry smoothie with protein booster (125)
d- cheese doodles (112)
snack- luna bar (180)
total= 519
exercise:
walking (-618)
sex :D (-112)
net total= -211i went over but only by about 20 calories and i more than burned those off so i won't beat myself up. as long as i never go over by more than like 50 calories, i will be satisfied.
so last night my bf and i were right in the middle of having sex, and at one point we were staring into eachother's eyes and i knew what he wanted to say, because i've been wanting to say it for a long time, but he didn't so i asked him what he was thinking and he was like idk and i was like tell me and he goes "wow" so i say "wow what?" and he goes "wow you are so beautiful and amazing and just everything" and then we continued our 'exercising' teeheehee
:]
this was me on day 1 of abc, first thing in the morning. lots of improvement needed. i shall do it!
today will be a good day :]
i love you guys <333
secondly, here's how i did yesterday:
food:
b- egg, 2 egg whites, coffee (102)
l- strawberry smoothie with protein booster (125)
d- cheese doodles (112)
snack- luna bar (180)
total= 519
exercise:
walking (-618)
sex :D (-112)
net total= -211i went over but only by about 20 calories and i more than burned those off so i won't beat myself up. as long as i never go over by more than like 50 calories, i will be satisfied.
so last night my bf and i were right in the middle of having sex, and at one point we were staring into eachother's eyes and i knew what he wanted to say, because i've been wanting to say it for a long time, but he didn't so i asked him what he was thinking and he was like idk and i was like tell me and he goes "wow" so i say "wow what?" and he goes "wow you are so beautiful and amazing and just everything" and then we continued our 'exercising' teeheehee
:]
this was me on day 1 of abc, first thing in the morning. lots of improvement needed. i shall do it!
today will be a good day :]
i love you guys <333
Monday, April 4, 2011
abc
gotta get back to losing. im tired of this maintenance crap, but at least now i know i can do it :]]
abc day one- 500 calories
here we go!!!
who wants to join me??? any and all support will be greatly appreciated :D
this time, im gonna take it day by day and stick to the calories 100%. and as long as i get up and move at least a little everyday, i won't strain myself to do exercise, but i will do lifting at least twice a week to keep my muscles and tone them.
im also focusing my calories around protein, and the fasting days are 0 calorie, which means diet coke black coffee and tea are ok.
after abc im jumping into the skinny girl diet again too. which i think is awesome because the calories are slightly higher than abc so i can work on increasing my intake at a gradual speed instead of binging.
april will be binge free!
feelin very excited
and determined
and so ready to jump headfirst into this
i know im going to kick ass this time :D
<333
abc day one- 500 calories
here we go!!!
who wants to join me??? any and all support will be greatly appreciated :D
this time, im gonna take it day by day and stick to the calories 100%. and as long as i get up and move at least a little everyday, i won't strain myself to do exercise, but i will do lifting at least twice a week to keep my muscles and tone them.
im also focusing my calories around protein, and the fasting days are 0 calorie, which means diet coke black coffee and tea are ok.
after abc im jumping into the skinny girl diet again too. which i think is awesome because the calories are slightly higher than abc so i can work on increasing my intake at a gradual speed instead of binging.
april will be binge free!
feelin very excited
and determined
and so ready to jump headfirst into this
i know im going to kick ass this time :D
<333
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
:/
so im watching the biggest loser on hulu, and the contestants are reflecting on their journeys so far and one guy was talking about how he is becoming the person he always wanted to be.
i feel like these people work so hard and put in so much effort to be healthy and lose weight, and yet i pretty much lost 70 pounds by not doing anything. sure, i went through periods where i would work out for hours but it was never consistent.
not eating is doing it the easy way, and throwing up is like cheating. i feel like i cheated my body of the opportunity to know true health :/
part of me wishes i could gain it all back and just start over and do it the right way so i can become the person i always wanted to be.
the only thing stopping me from gaining the weight back is the uncertainty of what happens when i gain it back. i don't want to be that fat again, and if i ever did, there's no guarantee that i would be able to lose it all again the right way.
i feel like these people work so hard and put in so much effort to be healthy and lose weight, and yet i pretty much lost 70 pounds by not doing anything. sure, i went through periods where i would work out for hours but it was never consistent.
not eating is doing it the easy way, and throwing up is like cheating. i feel like i cheated my body of the opportunity to know true health :/
part of me wishes i could gain it all back and just start over and do it the right way so i can become the person i always wanted to be.
the only thing stopping me from gaining the weight back is the uncertainty of what happens when i gain it back. i don't want to be that fat again, and if i ever did, there's no guarantee that i would be able to lose it all again the right way.
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