xanga

got one: http://heather-hunger.xanga.com/

idk why though, ill probably just copy/paste entries from here to there... lol
mostly cuz xanga girls have amazing thinspo, something i'm in desperate need of if i'm going to finish abc.

and i AM going to finish abc.
no matter what.

nighty nighty lovelies <33

heebeejeebus!!!!

my computer is being stupid, but i really super want to tell you this in response to the comment and your latest post. lol.

"i hate how that logic makes perfect sense.
like, if im ugly then at least i can try to not be fat. because if im not fat, then i can say that im doing better than a lot of people out there, even if my face does look fucked up.
sometimes i get scared that maybe im just ugly too.
but it would be better to be skinny and ugly than fat and ugly i guess...
even though if i were skinny then there is a huge possibility i would still be depressed and fail at life and hate everything.....
but its worth a try??
maybe??

idk sorry for rambling i just really like this post it made me feel not so alone :]"

ily!
<3

heather

will be exercising until she dies for the rest of the day.
fml.
and the oreos.

but no, im not counting this as fail, there are no failures.
i'll start over right now and work to make today a better day.

i dont want to be sad anymore, so im going to focus on fixing things instead of worrying about them.

day 1 (500)

yesterday was amazing.

diet mt dew (x3) - 0
tea - 0
cereal w/ soymilk - 150
green beans - 70
popcorn - 200
sip of mexican liwour :] - rounds up to 500

exercise burned 1000 cals, rmr= 1600
total for yesterday: -2100 calories
weight today: 151!
yay :]

goals for today:
drink at least 4 water bottles
install new hard drive on computer
clean floors in house
finish abc calendar
exercises as usual tonight

abc

starts tomorrow, many of us are doing it, you should too :{D
the more, the merrier. the more people involved, the more support we will all have, the more pounds we will all lose.
there's even a forum: http://abcnow.proboards.com
yay!
oh yeah, today i weighed 152 :] im getting there again :]

except, thanksgiving was a fail, but i worked my ass off last night, and plan on doing the same tonight, and hopefully didnt gain weight from today, plus i took some laxatives, so all should be well :]]

i am so excited to do abc again.
i will do it, the whole thing, not just the first week.

we will all do this, and at the finish line, we will hold hands and take a skinny bow, and the world will see us for the beautiful goddesses we all are.
<333

addicted

to green beans and diet mountain dew.

ive probably posted this before

but i thought it was kind of inspirational, since i have come so far.

still not good enough.

must work harder.

my story: